Well not until tomorrow but let's celebrate early because guess what?!?!??! The website is ready from my OG's (Original Gods & Goddesses) to claim your pouches first!!! I have some favorite products poured up and ready for you! The Healing Wax, Amber Pomade, Empowerment Oil, and a new Smudge Spray are ready to be added to your personal pouch of potions and I'm excited to share them with you!!!
I miiight hop on IG live tomorrow morning to explain the pouches of potions a bit more in detail as this is a new way I forsee using for quite some time. My previous blog explains some of the ways I plan to move forward with product and herbal ally work. Ironically I basically closed the shop last year on my birthday as I was navigating through some big professional transitions. Well that transition has passed and I've been rebuilding product since this past winter! I'm excited to offer you some new offerings in the shop as a gift to us all!!!! Let's celebrate!!!
Isn't it interesting to reflect and observe patterns in our own life?!?!?!
My life is nothing I would have imagined and is everything I needed. Many years ago on my birthday I started writing letters to my younger self. Typically to the Allison who was hurting the most and needed the most healing. It can be a triggering exercise but I don't think triggers are bad...they are an opportunity to grow and heal in a new way. I invite you to do the same if your younger self needs a little love.
Here is what my letter looks like this year...something new as I addressed all the Allison's of the past, not just a specific 9 yr old or 13 yr old girl who was scared and lost. This is a letter to remind myself of how far I've come and how much healing as taken place this lifetime. Might be a bit triggering to some, so read with caution and an open heart.
Dear 5 yr old Allison, enjoy these moments. Embrace the fun and joy now, life will get rough but you and Mitchell will be okay. Keep having fun, these memories will stay forever.
Dear 10 yr old Allison, you're not doing anything wrong a monster just happens to be your step dad. Take some deep breaths and know that this will only last a few more years. You'll get to live with Dad in the end and all your siblings will be okay.
Dear 15 yr old Allison, you are a FUCKING warrior. Look at all you have already survived. Don't worry about the burn scars they will fade, you will get to run again. Don't take the pills you don't succeed and it fucks things up for awhile.
Dear 20 yr old Allison, all things do happen for a reason but 20 years later I'm still pondering some of the whys of this season. LOL! Protect your own energy and don't give so much. Also, you won't be a massage therapist forever but you will gain some incredible wisdom and connections during this time. This era opens a whole new level of healing and spirituality to your life.
Dear 25 yr old Allison, You are gonna be the best Mom to Joleigh! She really is the most amazing kid. Even through her teen years she skips with you through the parking lot holding hands. And good Lord PLEEEASE start working on your anxiety??!!!??! You are able to learn to control it but you have to start doing the work.
Dear 30 year old Allison, Don't worry you won't always have to work this hard. You end up in your dream house and double your salary. Being distracted with work and motherhood is no excuse to not take care of yourself...start prioritizing your mental and physical health. You have to stop avoiding the work.
Dear 35 year old Allison, I'm glad your finally starting to make yourself a priority. Big shifts are happening for you and your household. This is your last year with Bella but don't worry she finds you again, Tom ends up falling in love with Dogs.
Dear 40 year old Allison, You are doing the damn things. Sure there is still work to do but we are doing it everyday. Our daily routine of "Doing something daily for my future self" is one of my favorite things to do for myself and share with others.
My life has had some dark moments, like most people I would guess. What's really interesting is some of my darkest or brightest aren't even mentioned?!?! I feel like I've done a lot of healing work in the last couple decades and avoided some work as well along the way.
Sometimes I find it frustrating that we have to revisit old patterns and cycles. Especially if you've done a lot of work in an area, you're like wwwwhhhyyyy? But look at it as a way of showing up for yourself and practicing your new boundaries, your new coping tools whatever they may be. Maybe the universe is just giving us a chance to test out our new super power? Don't get frustrated with patterns just keep practicing until you have mastered how to navigate through it.
I feel like writing a letter to your younger self is a great way to do some healing work as well...maybe at a certain time that you were facing some trauma or darkness to provide some hope and love to that child version of yourself that was lacking protection, love, guidance...whatever it may have been.
When I really began to dive into some healing work I got VERY sick to the point that I was in the hospital and seeking a lot of medical guidance to find answers. As I addressed my past my body began to heal. As I changed the way I was treating myself my body and spirit began to heal in a way I didn't really know I needed. Don't get me wrong this was not an overnight healing process this probably took over two decades and in some ways I'm still working on a good handful of things.
The difference now is I don't live in chaos. I'm not full of anxiety and fear. My life is full of deep controlled breaths. I've gained back control of my well being and health and I"m the strongest and healthiest I've ever been. And I'm proud of myself!!! I'm excited to see what the next few years are going to look like because I have some big goals in the next 5, 10, 15, 20 years.
And to those of you who have known me for awhile and loved me through those dark times.... THANK YOU!!!!! Thank you for loving me because loving me is a little like trying to hug a porcupine, I know! LOL! I'm proud of us and how far we have all come and excited to celebrate the next victories!!!!
AND FOR TAKING the time to read all this for the weekend I'll be giving a birthday surprise away in each order as a thank you to all my plant magic believers out there. Thank you for being you and believing in me! Use code "Celebrate" at checkout!